friends .. ?

hello bluuuuhg , so far , life's been too hectic to even bother ykno ? hahah
it's practically work or just lazing around at home , like i literally NEED a life but then again , i am glad the way it is , ( but yea rather pathetic huh )
the holidays are slowly coming to an end , and honest to god , i really don't want it to end bc of all the awesome memories i have made at the Orchid Country Club , the people there espeicially , work has been such a great experience with friends ..
but then again , it does suck with friends around , truth be told bc they can be all oh so annoying and PMS-sy , not saying I ain't like that but yea sometimes they get pissed for no apparent reason ???? and i'm just life uhm i could ATLEAST use an explanation ykno . but well that's girls for you , hahahahah

school is starting and heck , i ain't even prepared at ALL .
i really do not want to go back to that fucking hellhole , i hate that place ..
and to make matters worse , it's o level year next year , great ..
i am not prepared a single bit , i'm such a fuck up , oh god
but it isn't too late :-)

today's the 17th and i'm meeting 165 on the 19th !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i'm so flacking excited , i miss them so much , every moment spent with them is one too fun ☺
and then on the 23rd , USS with the work mates , CAN YOU HEAR ME SCREAMING OMG


till then , i guess it's work and what not yea ?
hahahahah , just a really short one so i'm ending this post here hahah bye
x , jyoti

life is a blur ..

hello people  who actually read my blog , and I do thank you for that , hahah .

anyways , as usual , life is just a mess and I can't really figure out my purpose and aims . 

these few days I'm always too occupied with either school or work that I hardly have time to think

and when I am finally free , like I am now , I think  , in fact I think way too much to the extent it's harmful .

these days I have been thinking of rather stupid things like , hmm say I have been considering the wrong people as friends and the one that are truly the friends I have actually been chucking aside . 

I call people best friend , but are they really ? are they really my best friends ? best friends meaning the best i can ever have , best best and nothing but the best ? if that is so , why doesn't it feel like it ? how come they don't love me and appreciate me as much as I do to them ...

it's so childish and immatured of me to think this way but hey I really needed a platform to express my inner thoughts which I couldn't tell anyone , ironically ..

anyways , there have been Highs in my life which god , it was probably the best thing god has ever done for me and I THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THAT , LIKE REALLY I NEEDED THAT ..

There's Noah , and god , I think I actually may be in love with like him a lot , his words and all ..

how they keep me up at night , replaying the thoughts over and over and over till finally sleep consumes me wholly 

and then there is the M1 Fringe Festival 2014 where we would be presenting our SYF plays , I absoloutely CANNOT wait :-) 

What an honour and privilege .. really .

but ah well , SJI is gonna be there sobs , tHAT MEANS AARON HAN IS GONNA BE THERE TOO , LIKE DUUUUUDE CAN YOU FEEL THE PAIN / EMBARRASSMENT / IDEK 

let me just blend in with my shadow plz plz plz

but i'm just gonna act really cool and have that ' whatevrrrrr like who are you even ' attitude hehe 

okay it seems legit la k 

or maybe not but whatevrrrrr

the previous week i was pretty depressed and shit bc I had this really teensy weensy  crush on a guy from my work , Han Ping . But ... he's 22 .. and he's done with his National Service and all that crap , making him a man , you see .. so I didn't really want him to know bc we had an age gap of 7 years and besides it's not like it would ever happen whaaaaat ..

but whenever he was near , my cheeks would flush and my face would be all hot and crap , and I could actually feel butterflies in my stomach .

anyways , he asked for my friend's number and that actually made me cry like a dweeb during work , I FEEEEL SO RETARDED :-((

and just that week I had a breakdown during work for other reasons , and I cried for like ummm 2 hours ? fuck man . 

I was finally getting over that asking of number thing and then he decided to take her out on a date , ha ha ha and it would have been much better if my friend wasn't the ' hey look i really pity you and i will date him for your sake but since my other friends told me to go , i will oh and i will also constantly keep sending photos of us on our date in the whatsapp group and be totally oblivious of you and your feelings ' .. it would be MUCH better but she isn't so , sucks to be me .

So well that sucked but , i'm like heck totally over that !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so screw you :-)

and I am totally head over heels with MDP's new album heheheh :-)

so that's all for this season of Keeping up with Jyoti , see you next week ;)

x , jyoti .

i'm sorry .

well so yea , this is like a totally spontaneous blogpost so it might sound awkward and lol , weird ?
So yea , these few days i've been behaving like REALLY anal in class , espeicially to some people in particular , i aint gonna say names but yea , i thought over about my behaviour and thought it as really unnecessary . but yea , i have my reasons too , because i was actually taken rlly aback when i heard some things , you see . but wey hey , decided to let go and stuff bc hating is bad for you . and it kind of creates a negative aura in your ownself . this blogpost is hopefully seen by those people , and if you're reading it , I'm really really really really sorry by my behaviour and hopefully you would be able to forgive me . Geez i am such a bitch... but yea , im really sorry / ☺

Events and what not

Hello , its been ages since i last blogged but i guess maybe because i'm a lazy bum and there wasn't a great deal happening in my life :-)
But anyways , like 4 days ago , on a Wednesday , i emcee-ed for the Nationa day celebrations and i was really excited about it because the only event i have ever emcee-ed for was the Graduation ceremony for the Sec 4s and 5s :-)
And thank god , everything went well , espeicially with Ian around , like he has a lot of experience in emcee-ing so thank god for him !! hallelujah (!!!)
So anyways , after the whole celebration and stuff , Ian Syafiqah and Ish and myself were heading out for like a mini gathering and something of that sort but before that , they had their Champions Tea as Ish was stepping down as president and Ian & Syafiqah were now taking over !:-)
So i waited backstage for them , HAHAHAH .
So after all that was done , we were at the mrt , and that was when * drumrolls * , i realised I LEFT MY WALLET IN MEHREEN'S BAG , hurray . 
So us depressed souls , whom were already tired and hungry waited outside the MRT while trying to contact Mehreen , but oh wait for the punchline ...... SHE DIDN'T HAVE A PHONE . fuck me right ? :-)
So convenient , RIGHT ? :-)
But thank god we had our means , and we managed to contact her anyways . So we met up at TPY and she handed me my wallet and stuff . PHEW .
So after that , we went to eat ( thank heavens )
We went to Yishun and we waited for Seoul Garden and just as we were making reservations , we found out we were 7th in line . 7TH /// BLOODY 7TH ///////
and just when we thought it couldn't get any worse , turns out the reservation before us made a reservation for 11 .... motherfucking 11 ... gorl , are you like bringing your whole damn village out to eat ?!
and we went to find other places to go and eat and we roamed around the mall and just when we thought things could get worse , SEOUL GARDEN CALLED , OMG YAY !!!!
So we quickly got there and yea , started eating and stuff . We were having so much fun , sharing jokes and laughing like a total psychopath , i swear to god the people beside us were like totally judging us . SPEAKING OF WHICH , THERE WAS THIS REALLY FUCKING CREEPY DUDE ACROSS ME AND HE WAS LIKE GIVING THOSE PEDO GRINS LIKE EW GTFO MAN
but thank heavens , they left early , but well , the next people to have come weren't any better , fucking snobby omg , sigh !!!
So yea , after much thinking on where to go , we decided to go to *drumrolls * DISCOVERY CENTRE YAYAYAYYAYAYAYAYAYA , so we hopped on a taxi allllll the way to Jurong and hoho , it cost us like , 20 bucks ?
So , yea , fuck that .

the minute we entered the Discovery centre , i swear we were having the time of our lives and oh ,
' I swear in that moment , we were infinite '
We danced to some sensor shit , and our faces were on the screen and did live reporting and we even got to be in a ' battle ' HAHAHAHA

I love them so much i can cry ( ok maybe not but yea you get me )
So after that , we went to the Army museum and we went to the display of the vehicles and let me just tell you a depressing tale ,
I spent 10 minutes trying to climb the tank
RT if u cri everitiem

So yea , and we took crazy lots of photos and explored the place , it was really a day to remember ☺

And to end of the day , we took a cab back to Woodlands and had starbucks while looking at the photos and laughing our asses off , AND I HAD MY GREEN TEA FRAPPE VENTI HEHEHEHEHHEEHEH so thats how the day ended :-)

pain .

i have an obsession .
with pain .
the pleasure as the
razor slits my skin
is just so undeniably good
and it gives me
the feelings of being
invincible
that if i can endure pain
i can endure
everything .

☺

hello there . so , yes tomorrow is labour day and its a public day and i dont have any school so i just thought , why not update my blog when i have the time ? :-)
so yes , i have just had this thought pondering in my head for a pretty pretty long time and the thing is , i couldn't really tell anyone because im afraid if i do say face to face , they wouldn't , understand .
So , am i the only one who from time to time , wished i had .. cancer ? Yes , i know , seems absurd . But i don't know , maybe if i had cancer .. people would actually CARE about my existence and they would actually start noticing me , not in a bad way tho . Like the thing is , you get to know when you're dying , and right now , maybe just right now , i think that is really wonderful espeicially at the point of life when you just don't want to live anymore , ya feel me ? All the pain , all the sorrows , just lost instantly like that . I know , this probably sounds sadistic . But the thing about cancer that just sounded so appealing was the fact that , you actually become so skinny , and really thats all i ever wanted , i dont give a fuck if my bones are showing and protruding , so long as im not fat , so long as im near perfection . sorry . my self esteem desires can get really ..
Yupp , and i want people speaking at my funeral to prepare a funny eulogy so that when im up in heaven . id just go like ' those bastards ' hahahhaha



I HOPE YOU DONT THINK IM SADISTIC OR ANYTHING
x , jyoti . ☺

emotional mess .

hey :-)
so i guess , its been a while since i blogged . Been feeling rather shitty these days , mainly about MYSELF . Idky but haiz , why now , why this period of time when im facing and going through so much shit . I can't help but feel ugly 24/7 , oops typo , i AM ugly . & i seriously seriously dont like it when people compliment me , because i feel that they're lying , they only say it because they pity me , y'know ?
My self esteem (( which i dont even have )) just drops like wayyyy below (( making it a negative number )) when i see really gorgeous girls with the perfect body . Haiz . Sometimes i wonder , would my life be better if i actually could look good AND feel good ? I bet it would DEFINITELY be better . I hate myself so bad to the extent that i actually avoid mirrors because i know when i see myself looking horrible , my whole mood would go down . I guess thats about it . k hahahah this will be my last time ranting about myself , really , even i dont like it myself .
x , jyoti .

screwed .

hi guys , so yay its saturday and im feeling very numb . I've been feeling rather shitty for the past few days , just cant help but let out all my emotions at night when everyone else is sound asleep . So anyways , yesterday was the very first Arts Fiesta rehearsals , ok actually second la , bc i never go for the first rehearsal . SOOOO , it was so fun , really really really cant wait for arts fiesta  , but things are starting to look bad . Yesterday after coming back from Sharin's house , I went to the toilet to get my comb before sleeping but i was so lazy to turn the lights on so i didnt notice the god damn soap that was on the floor , so i slipped and hit the toilet bowl , lucky it didnt break any bones omg . And then i was so traumatised and in pain i just lay on the floor waiting for the Grim Reaper to come and take my soul bc i genuinely thought i was going to die , then i shouted for my mama and then she screamed and i was like so puzzled , like wtf is she shouting , so i stood up and i looked at my face , hoLY FUCK HALF  MY FACE WAS LIKE FUCKING SWOLLEN LIKE FUCKING FUCKING SWOLLEN OMG /
So she was like freaking out and so was i because i thought that if my swelling doesnt recede i cant perform for Arts Fiesta la fuck . So i cry bc sad .
Hahaha , the fact that we had no more ice cubes at home , i mean there was but .... i kind of made syrup ice cubes and the whole ice cube tray was full of flavoured ice cubes hahaha then in the end out frozen meat , close enough .
I also realised how much i love my mom yesterday , seems shallow yes i know . But its just that , theres just so much friction between us nowadays like me being rebellious towards her and all but at the end of the day im just hurting her . When she was so worried and started crying yesterday , i also couldnt control my tears and i realised i really love her alot , and that even when no one is there for me , she will be . I love you mama ☺
So thats about it , i guess :-)
x , jyoti .

SYF ☺

Well hello there , its the 4th !! and approximately 6 hours ago , we stepped into the ACJC theater and gave our very best shot for our play . So it was amazing the whole thing was completely amazing , i swear to god ! Wow all our 6 months of effort felt like it all paid off . ☺
Altho , maybe twice or thrice i kinda screwed up , it was all okay at the end . After our performance and bump out , we all went out of the theater and people complimented me and it felt soooo good ^_^ Prolly because i was really scared and the worst part was that we went overtime by 30 secs , damnnnn . But all of them told us , it was worth the 5 marks (( they cut off 5 marks if you exceed 15 minutes , but before 16 minutes , after 16 10 marks will be deducted . ))
The thing i was realllllllyy glad about was the fact that the judges laughed at most of the punchlines , and even at the not-so-funny parts , they laughed :D
Mr leon yeo was like laughing his ass off , TROLOLOLOL . it was damn funny and THANK GOD Sai didn't over exaggerate his actions or else i would have just laughed my ass off , and Gang Xin's part too omfg , can we not hahhaha .
So overall , it was a really good day for me .
And after our syf , we went to Pasta Mania as a celebration !
& Yi xiang treated us Crepe's ♥.♥
Happy girl is who ? Obviously me duh /
I wanted to give an emotional and motivational speech but hais , it was so hard to even think of something to say so hahhahah FUCK IT .
TROLOLOL , so on the  way back to school , I sat beside my dear best friend Hang Tuah trololololol .




So yea , i think back at all the memories made during the syf journey and how much it has impacted me , both negatively and positively . I realised that the only reason i live for , is for moments like these , espeicially when everybody told us how great we were , it really meant so much to me , i didnt want to break down infront of everyone but really it touched me . Yesterday i was really very tempted to self-harm again after something had happened , and honestly , the thing i told myself was ' You can self harm as much as you want after syf , till then just don't '
And now that syf is over , i feel as tho , all the pain has just been removed just like that , all the urge to cut was just gone and then i realised how small little things like these just make so much of an impact on you .
I remember i joined Drama club because of ' FAMILY ' , how they told us that in drama everyone is a family , and for the very first time , in my 3 years of being in drama , that was the first time i really felt that it was truly a family . Like how everyone there all had the same goal , to do well for our SYF and get a distinction .
i realised how the chances of this happening again for me is not really very high because it's my last syf . But really , i love all of them to bits , maybe i don't have individual likings , but as a whole , i definitely love The Deyi English Drama Club .


And now , with SYF over , we shall wait for our results and see where our effort has taken us .
SYF'13 was ... da bomb .
x , Jyoti (( Hang Jebat + Sha sha )) ☺

LONG TIME .

hi guise its been sooo freaking long since i last updated . really sorry , im just so busy with CCA (( drama )) and school , and by the time i get home im so freaking tired i dont even want to turn the computer on . hahah yes im THAT tired . so yea anyways not much has happened . Wow ,  16 more days to Singapore Youth Festival and i really hope we get distinction man .


SOOOO let me fill you in with what happened today . today we had lighting (( rehearsal )) at the SYF venue and everyone was there today although during durring drama practices , only the cast and the necessary crew is there , but today it was the ENTIRE drama club , so while we were doing runs , my god damn juniors were like romancing with the guys from my batch , HELLO CAN YOU NOT ?!? omg , a bit of respect please ? like they were literally flirting throughout the ENTIRE 2 HOURS . i was fucking fuming hahahah . and the fact that those boys are the worst , they are ALWAYS skipping drama , and wow when they finally decide to come , they come just to flirt , bitch im soooo done with you . so all that was over , after we bumped out (( bump out means basically moving all the sets out on a given time )) , we were already back in school , and we were taking the sets up to the drama room . sooooo when i was walking with syafiqah , ian came up to me and told me that one of the sec ones literally stroked his hand and said his enitre name out in that lovey dovey tone HAHHAA ALMOST DIED TBH
so yea , and did i tell you how cute gabriel is ? no , WELL GABRIEL IS FACKINNNNNGGGGG CUTE ERMAHGAWD . meh .
hahahahah yes gabriel cute cute cute\
hahaha dont have much to say except that i hope we do well for SYF and bring glory . ☺
xoxo , Jyoti .  ☺

heylo .

hey y'all beautiful people out there :)
so it's wednesday ^-^
the time of the week im always happy bc school starts late and i dont have staybacks ;D
SO TODAY ALOT OF SHIT HAPPENED .
hmmm so i was supposed to go BK with firzanah and umairah , but in the end we didnt go bc neither of us wanted to go , so i went back to sleep @ 5.30 , then woke up at 7 . then i slack all the way until 7.15 THEN I IRON MY CLOTHES UNTIL 7.20 heheheh . and the fact that im supposed to be out of the house by 7.30 hahahahha . so my dad was so pissed meh .
dont really care tbh , so yea left the house at ..... 7.45 ?
yeap , the bus came at 8.06 so the bus reached my school bus stop @ 8.20 , i knew i was gonna be late anyways , so might as well take your own sweet time instead of getting detention by being late for a few minutes right ? So yes , with that in mind , i headed for AMK hub :D
So i felt like eating some Waffle cone ice-cream , so i took out my money and then realised that i dropped my money while taking my change out to put in the bus  , fucked up ? YES  .
so i realised i had no money to take the bus back to school so I walked all the motherfucking way back to school while reading my Social Studies notes because i had a test today , nyat .
thank god my school is just a 5 minute walk away :')
so i sing song and revise my notes at the same time . so after i got to school , we were having Mother Tongue lessons , and my class is used for the Band 3 students who take Chinese  , and since i dont take nay mother tongue subject , i just sit at the back of the class and do my work , (( and looking at my crush at the same time )) hahhaha yea .
so i entered in late like a bosss :D
So after the lesson ended , i wanted to throw away the piece of paper where Joleen and I had my conversation without getting the teachers attention , i was afraid people would pick that paper up from the dustbin and read it , so i tore it , then while i was tearing the paper , i was looking at _______ (( crush )) while he walked out , then suddenly he turned his glance at me . WTF . SO EMBARRASSING , the fact that i was caught staring at him , my gosh embarrassing to the max :x
so gerard was coming my way to talk to me then i just broke downnnn :b as in not cry and all , but because embarrassing !!!! GEZ .
so i just got over that shit hahhaha yes so moving on , lets see what else we can talk about .
hmmmm , nothing much lol
hahahaha k bye , jyoti x

// sad bitches // failing gives me joy //

Hey y'all . So today is friday , thank god it's friday ! ☺
So this day last week i saw pierce the veil live omg , my heart might just shatter , /ahh/
so anyways , ever since like wednesday i've been so sick that i could just kill someone bc its so annoying not being able to carry on with your daily activities w/o sniffing your mucus up every 5 seconds .
That sucks big time D;
anyways , i got back 3 of my tests , and i did my pure geography test paper , luckily i managed to finish it on time , i was really scared i wouldn't be able to do so because Han xiang told me that he wasn't able to finish the paper , then i was very scared like what if i cant finish it omg . But luckily i did , phew .
So yea , as i was saying .. tests ! Yea , i got back my English Comprehension , Mathematics and Principle of Acccounts paper back today , and guess what .
Yea . i failed all those motherbitches tests . SIGHS  .
;-;
For english // 11out of 25 (( probably the first time i failed english , devastating man .. ))
for maths // 7 out of 20  (( as expected ))
for POA // 15 OUT OF FREAKING 40 (( THIS IS REALLY BAD , BC IN THE LAST TEST I GOT 35 , AND I DROPPED WHOPPING 20 MARKS MAN ))

that was devastating , okay moving on .
what else happened hmm lemme see , oh yea Eric Piang Soe was such a douche .
Like totally zzzzz man .
Because i was taking down notes from the slideshow , and then he stood up , so i was like ' Eric can you move ? '
and he just ignored me and took his own sweet time , and i was like ... k ....
waiting ////
so he finally moved and i was like , ' all these tall niggas '
and trust me , i said it as a casual remark , not to hurt anyone or shit .
and he just stood beside me for like 5 seconds , totally dumbfounded , and then he said ' Please la , your skin is darker than mine '
and i just wanted to laugh out loud so fucking badly . like damn eric , damnnn . btw , he's god damn chinese  , and im just tan ( so which means its not my natural skin tone , im actually really fair zzz)

WHEN I CALL YOU A NIGGA , IM NOT ACTUALLY SAYING YOU ARE BLACK  , YA KNOW , its like its just a remark to call a certain someone , and im actually laughing at the fact that he took 5 seconds for a comeback #done .
well , what to say , all these motherfucking poseurs aint know no shit about arguing , 100 % done .
You see , the thing is , all the boys from my school are neither hot and neither are they hilarious . So this pretty much sucks , bc i will never be sexually attracted to anyone from my school , but its alright bc i hate all of them , all fake bitches , i only like 5 % of the school's population , people who are my friends and dont actually make remarks about me even before getting to know me , yey .
So thats it for today , really hoping i recover from this flu thouhg , * prays *


Signing off ,
                 Jyoti x ☺









*ps : i realised that if anyone from my school actually found out about my blog , i'd be in deep shit bc everyone would start hating on me , ya know what i mean hahahha

PIERCE THE VEIL GIG ♥

HELLO GUISE !
So anyways , this blog post is a really really late one(  5 DAYS LATE TO BE PRECISE )  , but whatever :b Was really busy with tests and all that shit .
So YES , on the 15th of February , i went to my first ever CONCERT :D , AND IT WAS MY FAVOURITE BANDS ONE TOO , PIERCE THE VEIL
YES IT WAS AMAZING , so before the gig started , a local band was the opening act , and damn they were really good , ain't gonna lie . I think they're called Achilious and they sand Let Love Bleed Red omg , perfection ? YES . My goodness , the fact that everything sang the chorus together >>>
(( Lay me down , and tell me everything will be alright , things will be alright )) 
so i think after 3 more songs , i started getting impatient LIKE PIERCE THE VEIL COME OUT ALREADY OK .
SO THEY DID , AND I WAS SO FUCKING EXCITED LIKE , DO YOU UNDERSTAND MY FEELS ?! I WAS LITERALLY JUMPING AND SCREAMING AND EVERYONE IN MY VINCINITY WAS STARING AT ME , BUT FUCK THAT , ITS PIERCE THE VEIL //////
And i was literally jumping up and down , so they started off with Besitos , so everyone was jumping and having a real good time  . AND Out of no fucking where , this guy behind me dry humps me , FUCK ?/ i was like , omg wtf . So i gave him a rough push and he said , It was my friend . Like really bitch , you want me to believe that dry humping has a god damn domino effect , because the last time i checked you friend was behind you -_-
So i didnt care la , so angry >.>
And the entire concert was like a dream come true , and i swear i might have cried when Vic sang Hold on 'til May , espeicially going by the fact that he dedicated it to his older brother , Frank Fuentes who just beat cancer :')
My god , but i was too hyper so i couldn't cry :/
But yes , i was so fucking overwhelmed .
When the gig was like over , Vic was like , THANK YOU SINGAPORE YOU GUYS ARE GREAT BLAH BLAH .
And the whooooolllllleeeee entire crowd chanted ' ONE MORE SONG ' , jesus , it was ama - fucking- zing . And then everyone chanted ' KING FOR A DAY ' .
And guessie , THEY WERE LIKE , YOU GUYS WANT MORE SONG HUH ?! ALRIGHT SINCE KELLIN'S NOT HERE , YOU GUYS HAVE TO FILL IN HIS PART .
so we all sang " dare me to jump off this Jersey bridge , i bet you never had a friday night like this , 

1. Keep it u, let's raise our hands. I take a look up at the sky and I see. Red for the cancer, red for the wealthy ... " 

   YEA IT WAS AWESOMME , YA HEAR ME 

   and i made like 2 friends , one is Cheng Kiat , the other im not really sure tho :/

   Hahahah , the way i met Cheng kiat , is just so god damn hilarious . Because before the gig started , the Achilious was perfoming , then i was behind him AND HE IS SO TALLLLLLL ;-; so i literally saw no shit , so he moved his body to a certain angle , and i could see clearly bc he tilted his head or smth hahah , so i tapped him on his shoulder and i was like " Eh don't move ah . okay ? Don't move okay , you very tall ley " 

   AND then i squeeeeeeeeezed infront of him , and then we talked , bc like i told him the band was very good and then we talked about schools , bands , and cca's etc etc . Turns out he is from Bowen Secondary , which , in fact is my school's rival for military band , HAHAHHAHA . and he was at the SYF performance last year supporting bowen sec , and i was there supporting my school as well WOOOOO ~~ SO ITS LIKE FATED SIA . okay maybe not lol . Thank god , i asked for his name , or else i would have never found his facebook  and we talk on whatsapp now , YAY . 

   
   

   OTHER THAN THAT , I HAVE NO OTHER EXCITING NEWS OTHER THAN , me being extremely sick today , and getting the chance to sleep for 3 periods straight in the Sick Bay , woohoo . 

   And oh yea , i hate my school :-)

   Basically , i hate 95 % of the school's population . 

   Yea , so let me feed you with photo's from the concert now . These photo's arent mind bc i didnt take my phone along with me but whatever as long as you can see the photos , can already righttt ?

   

    THIS IS THE OPENING BAND , ACHILIOUS . THEY WERE GOOD OKAY . 
   

   

    AND HERE IS VIC TALKING ABOUT FRANK BEFORE SINGING HOLD ON 'TIL MAY .
   

   

    AND I LIKE THIS PHOTO BC TONY'S FACE IS LIKE SHOWING COMPARED TO OTHER PHOTOS WHEN HIS HAIR BLOCKED HIS FACE ;-; 
   

   

   AND HERE IS TONY FIXING HIS GUITAR ♥☺

   
   

   
   

   
   

   
   

   
   

   yay , thanks guys !☺

   signing off ,  

                     Jyoti x ☺
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Valentine's day review !♥

hey lovelies !
I just checked my blog viewer feed , and basically i have had only 50 page views ... well this sucks . Big time .....
Okay anyways , today was Valentines Day , and phew lucky i got goodies and letters , if not i'd be doomed with being a loner . Hahahha , i feel kinda disappointed .... kinda only ///// Because like , some people i wrote letters for them , and gave them cupcakes , but .... i got nth in return , except for some lovelies ♥ But i thought about it and realised V day is about sharing your love , so yea , HAPPY LUH :D
so i got like 3 letters ? Yupp , from Gerard , Ash and Cheryl . And i got cup chocolates from Yun Xuan , a lollipop from Gerard , Blueberry cupcake from Umairah , an Orange Cupcake from Mr Ali , the same orange cupcake from Priam bc he didn't like it , 3 chocolates from Mehreen , 2 famous Amos cookies Shi Min , Chocolates from Zhen Hui and a stranger .. ♥☺

So anyways , I made cupcakes for my friends , IT TURNED OUT FANTABULOUS , except that the frosting sucked :<
So obviously , i needed to prepare 'em right ? I started my prep at 10:30 PM m and ended EVERYTHING at 12:30 AM ??? You know , actually i was supposed to make mold cookies , but then the dough went wrong , and it turned to a batter!! JENG JENG JENG RIGHT ?! so i panicked !! Then i was like , hey ! Maybe i could make cupcakes out of these . So yea i did . After finishing my cupcakes , i went to my room and studied 'til 2:30 AM bc i had a freaking math test today itself ! Sucks big time right ?! So i finally went to sleep , really dead and beat .
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So i had a really odd and weird dream , that i was at the MRT ( in case , you dont know what that is , its like the  subway ) , and you know those weird elevators type of passage  // LIKE THIS //






Yea well , so i was on it , then suddenly I SAW ISH , ( my senior friend ☺) AND I ran towards her , but she at the opposite side , so i had to go against the force . And i was struggling , and apparently there was a sweet on my mouth , and i started choking on it , choking REAL BAD . So i was so startled that i actually woke up from my sleep . Then i was like , wah feels like i slept for a really long time . So i went out to check the time , hoping i still had time to sleep , BUT WHEN I CHECKED THE TIME IT WAS FREAKING 6:33 AM //// And for your information , i leave home at 6.30 for school , HELL I WAS LATE YO . So i reached school at 7.45 u.u  & ended up getting detention . SUCKS .
but .... luckily i had friends in Detention , like Gerard , JJ , Regina , Xiaoting etc . So it wasn't boring at all , and basically half the time , the teacher was either on his laptop or out of the room , so my friends and I just talked the whole time ;D

other than that , school was fun ! Did barrel rolls inside class with Joyleen , Gerard and Umairah bc i was feeling really down bc my crush didn't want a cupcake since he was full , </333 HAHAHHAH JK .
SO YEA WE DID BARREL ROLLS AND WE STRUTTED ALONG THE CORRIDORS OF THE CLASSES . AND WE SMACKED EACH OTHER'S BOOBS >.>
FUN !!
so overall , today was great :-)
now hoping that i pass my maths test . Speaking of tests , i got 7/12 for my Social Studies test .

Social Studies : 7/12
PURE GEOGRAPHY : 9/15
HISTORY : 8/10

Hahah , im a very average student :)
Alrighties , bye now ,
signing off ,
                Jyoti ☺ x

blood and gore

hi , its the 13th , just one day before Valentines , and guess who doesn't have a date ?
Yes , thats right my dear fellow readers , its ME . me ME me MMMMMEEEEEE

And to top it all off , i'm on my period , woop tee fucking doo
And my current state

So anyways , i have a math common test tomorrow D;
I guess i handled school quite well today , except adjusting my to new seat at the back .
Like i was sitting at the front row , AND BOOM next thing you know , im sitting RIGHT at the back .
NYAYYYYYYYAYAYAYYAYAYA
so yea , i still have to make cookies for my friends , and oh not forgetting cards , sighs , oh well .
Its alright , so long as i get the same love back :3
So yea la , im struggling with Maths , i have no idea how the hell im gonna pass . Nyat . Later study until late .
Seems legit .
So thats about it ☺
Bye and have a greta Valentines Day !☺

nyan nyan nyan HAPPY CNY ^-^ nyan nyan nyan

Hello nyan catz , sorry i have not updated my blog for like a realllllllyyyyy long time . So anyways , today was the day of the Grammy awards , and hey , im not gonna deny Katy Gorgeous Perry looked hot as hell . And Rihanna ? My god , she looked stunning .

 

  and then ... there's me ... potato .
k whatever , school starts tomorrow , HI CAN WE NOT ?
but thank our lord that first period is mother tongue , and i dont take mother tongue so YAY .
Anyways , i have homework to complete so maybe i will do it during mother tongue .
I just remembered that i have to go to NEX to drop my books at the library and also visit Popular to buy my Pure Geography & Chemistry textbooks , my god it has almost been a month and i have not even purchased it yet  , woops . Its because my school decides to be a bitch and not update on the books , k whatever la .

Anyways , these days my life is basically comprised of me on the net tumblring , or reading a book or eating .. sighs .
So yea , school has been well ... we can say we've already started having ups and downs .
So over these one month , i have ... hmm , not much but .. oh yes / Got into a fight with Edwin LOLOL , thats because i fatboothed his face and he got reallllllLLLLYYYyyyyYYY MAAAAD and he started cursing me , hoping i'd get cancer , and even going to the extent of wishing my family death . Tsk , you have no idea how much i wanted to kick his skanky ass . But ugh , i had to keep my cool or else i'd be suspended for violence . Anyways , i moved on from that a long time ago because sigh what to do , peasants .
YEA , so hmmm life had been really boring , so many common tests and nyan . but up till now , i've been doing fairly well and i hope it stays that way ^_^
OMG , PTV CONCERT IN 3 DAYS , CAN YOU BELIEVE IT ? NO ? WELL NEITHER CAN I NYANNNNNNN .
K whatever .
So im reallllly looking forward to it , cant believe im gonna be seeing my babies . wooooo .
i really wanna go on blogging but i have no idea what to talk about .
How about i talk about my class ?
Ya seems cool , anyways , my class is great , i love them guys , except for a handful of muggles ought to be perished and exterminated , NYAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA .
WELL THAT SHOULD BE ABOUT IT YA , OK BYE ♥
SIGNING OFF , JYOTI  ☺

long time shit happened .

hey guise , so it's been reALLY long since i last blogged tbh .
and im gonna update the major events that have happened in my life so far .
So yes ! Definitely the main major upcoming event will be the PTV concert and im going !!!! You have no idea how freaking excited i am , since this is like their first time ! And the tickets are like only 57 bucks ! Mg , cheap ^-^

Can't believe im gonna be seeing my babies upfront tbh !!!
So the other major events hmmm . Well im having a really hard time adapting to my new class because i miss 2'6 so badly ... & too many ratchet basic bitches in my new class , like really they get on my nerves !!!
So , tomorrow is my CCA's farewell party for my seniors , btw im in the English Drama Club if i haven't told you before . AND THERE IS GONNA BE BUFFET ^_^ HAPPY LA HAPPY .
and there is gonna be level camo in about 5 days , mg !!!
and we're gonna be going to Desaru , ya y !


I dont really wanna talk much today , so sorry , moody as fuck hahah ,
xoxo , jyoti ♥

worst start to my year .

hey guise , so today was like the first day of school and ugh it sucked dick omg i wanted to roll on the floor and crey !!!

Pft , so let me start , so that you will actually understand , *sighs*

So today is like a wednesday which means , school starts at 8.30 instead of the usual 7.30 .

So i woke up at 6.50 and like bathed and stuff . And i left my house at 7.40 , so i reached the bus stop etc etc . And the BUS TOOK SOOOOOOO FREAKING LONG UGH . so when i reached my school bus stop , it was like 8.30 , i was like ugh fml ! AND THE WORST PART WAS THAT IT WAS RAINING AND I HAD NO UMBRELLA ;-; 

So i just ran all the motherfucking way to school , ugh bathe for nothing !! So when i reached school , i was like the only one entering school , then i ask the security guard , ' Aunty , today school start what time ?'

And she was like " 7.30" 

ASDFGHJKL SOMEONE KILL MEH

OMG 

AND I RUSHED TO MY CLASS WHICH WAS AT THE FOURTH MOTHERFUCKING FLOOR 

ughhhhh

And when i entered the class , like everybody was like judging and observing me like 

ugh , so embarrasing !!! 

Other than all the embarassment and wet uniform , everything went well until recess time , and i ate like one whole bowl of Minced pork noodles , like i was in a diet ;-;

UGHHHHH , AND AT CLASS A BUNCH OF MOTHERFUCKERS WERE SO NOISY I JUST WANTED TO THROW MY BAG AND BOOKS AT THEM , LIKE CAN U NOT 

and so my day ended , but i made a new friend , hehehehe

jyoti ♥