hey :-)
so i guess , its been a while since i blogged . Been feeling rather shitty these days , mainly about MYSELF . Idky but haiz , why now , why this period of time when im facing and going through so much shit . I can't help but feel ugly 24/7 , oops typo , i AM ugly . & i seriously seriously dont like it when people compliment me , because i feel that they're lying , they only say it because they pity me , y'know ?
My self esteem (( which i dont even have )) just drops like wayyyy below (( making it a negative number )) when i see really gorgeous girls with the perfect body . Haiz . Sometimes i wonder , would my life be better if i actually could look good AND feel good ? I bet it would DEFINITELY be better . I hate myself so bad to the extent that i actually avoid mirrors because i know when i see myself looking horrible , my whole mood would go down . I guess thats about it . k hahahah this will be my last time ranting about myself , really , even i dont like it myself .
x , jyoti .
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