screwed .

hi guys , so yay its saturday and im feeling very numb . I've been feeling rather shitty for the past few days , just cant help but let out all my emotions at night when everyone else is sound asleep . So anyways , yesterday was the very first Arts Fiesta rehearsals , ok actually second la , bc i never go for the first rehearsal . SOOOO , it was so fun , really really really cant wait for arts fiesta  , but things are starting to look bad . Yesterday after coming back from Sharin's house , I went to the toilet to get my comb before sleeping but i was so lazy to turn the lights on so i didnt notice the god damn soap that was on the floor , so i slipped and hit the toilet bowl , lucky it didnt break any bones omg . And then i was so traumatised and in pain i just lay on the floor waiting for the Grim Reaper to come and take my soul bc i genuinely thought i was going to die , then i shouted for my mama and then she screamed and i was like so puzzled , like wtf is she shouting , so i stood up and i looked at my face , hoLY FUCK HALF  MY FACE WAS LIKE FUCKING SWOLLEN LIKE FUCKING FUCKING SWOLLEN OMG /
So she was like freaking out and so was i because i thought that if my swelling doesnt recede i cant perform for Arts Fiesta la fuck . So i cry bc sad .
Hahaha , the fact that we had no more ice cubes at home , i mean there was but .... i kind of made syrup ice cubes and the whole ice cube tray was full of flavoured ice cubes hahaha then in the end out frozen meat , close enough .
I also realised how much i love my mom yesterday , seems shallow yes i know . But its just that , theres just so much friction between us nowadays like me being rebellious towards her and all but at the end of the day im just hurting her . When she was so worried and started crying yesterday , i also couldnt control my tears and i realised i really love her alot , and that even when no one is there for me , she will be . I love you mama ☺
So thats about it , i guess :-)
x , jyoti .