SYF ☺

Well hello there , its the 4th !! and approximately 6 hours ago , we stepped into the ACJC theater and gave our very best shot for our play . So it was amazing the whole thing was completely amazing , i swear to god ! Wow all our 6 months of effort felt like it all paid off . ☺
Altho , maybe twice or thrice i kinda screwed up , it was all okay at the end . After our performance and bump out , we all went out of the theater and people complimented me and it felt soooo good ^_^ Prolly because i was really scared and the worst part was that we went overtime by 30 secs , damnnnn . But all of them told us , it was worth the 5 marks (( they cut off 5 marks if you exceed 15 minutes , but before 16 minutes , after 16 10 marks will be deducted . ))
The thing i was realllllllyy glad about was the fact that the judges laughed at most of the punchlines , and even at the not-so-funny parts , they laughed :D
Mr leon yeo was like laughing his ass off , TROLOLOLOL . it was damn funny and THANK GOD Sai didn't over exaggerate his actions or else i would have just laughed my ass off , and Gang Xin's part too omfg , can we not hahhaha .
So overall , it was a really good day for me .
And after our syf , we went to Pasta Mania as a celebration !
& Yi xiang treated us Crepe's ♥.♥
Happy girl is who ? Obviously me duh /
I wanted to give an emotional and motivational speech but hais , it was so hard to even think of something to say so hahhahah FUCK IT .
TROLOLOL , so on the  way back to school , I sat beside my dear best friend Hang Tuah trololololol .




So yea , i think back at all the memories made during the syf journey and how much it has impacted me , both negatively and positively . I realised that the only reason i live for , is for moments like these , espeicially when everybody told us how great we were , it really meant so much to me , i didnt want to break down infront of everyone but really it touched me . Yesterday i was really very tempted to self-harm again after something had happened , and honestly , the thing i told myself was ' You can self harm as much as you want after syf , till then just don't '
And now that syf is over , i feel as tho , all the pain has just been removed just like that , all the urge to cut was just gone and then i realised how small little things like these just make so much of an impact on you .
I remember i joined Drama club because of ' FAMILY ' , how they told us that in drama everyone is a family , and for the very first time , in my 3 years of being in drama , that was the first time i really felt that it was truly a family . Like how everyone there all had the same goal , to do well for our SYF and get a distinction .
i realised how the chances of this happening again for me is not really very high because it's my last syf . But really , i love all of them to bits , maybe i don't have individual likings , but as a whole , i definitely love The Deyi English Drama Club .


And now , with SYF over , we shall wait for our results and see where our effort has taken us .
SYF'13 was ... da bomb .
x , Jyoti (( Hang Jebat + Sha sha )) ☺